It’s becoming quite evident I’m not going to be able to - nor do I really want to - write about every game after the end of every game.

Sometimes they’re too late, often they’re too frustrating.

But even if the Mets had come back to win late last night against Philadelphia, I don’t think I would have written about it until this morning at the very latest.

So sometimes I’ll write about an individual game, sometimes it will be a series, maybe sometimes it will be not at all.

What I can do on a consistent basis is give a monthly recap.

And here we are on the first of May, and I have to tell you: this is not the way I saw the season shaping up.

Now, let me say this: April was plagued by 1) an inconsistent schedule and 2) terrible weather.

When there was nice weather, there were scheduled off days. When the Mets played it was in freezing cold or starting and stopping due to rain or there were high winds. And of course, the season-opening series cancellation couldn’t have helped.

Now, them’s the breaks sometimes and other teams dealt with similar conditions so maybe it’s moot but it seems worth mentioning. It is a factor.

The reality is the Mets have wasted some stellar pitching this month and sit two games under .500 and missing an opportunity to put some distance between themselves and some less-than-impressive teams in the National League East.

I know batting average is a bit of a passè statistic, but I think it tells a pretty good story for April. Here are the Mets regulars:

Davis .395

Nimmo .339

Alonso .250

McCann .214

Conforto .212

Smith .206

McNeil .196

Lindor .189

The simple fact is the team is not hitting. Davis has missed time and he’s been a bit of a spark to the lineup since he’s been back, but he can't do it alone. And Nimmo’s .339 looks good, but that’s dropped 70 points in the past week. (And is likely to come even more back down to earth.)

Even worse, they’re not hitting with runners in scoring position. The story is the same it’s been the past few years, which is not good - this team is supposed to be better.

So you have to hope that as the weather warms, the bats do too. And then once they find a groove they’ll stay in it.

If the team is looking for something to light that fire, then they need look no further than the Phillies.

Last night Jose Alvarado called out Dominic Smith after he struck him out with runners on second and third to end the 8th inning. (This goes back to earlier in the month when Smith yelled at Alvarado from the dugout for hitting Michael Conforto after missing up and in on him.)

The benches emptied but nothing happened.

The Mets need something to happen.

Some sign of life. Of fire. Of enthusiasm.

Maybe it’s rallying against the Phillies. That didn’t seem to happen Friday night.

Maybe it will be this weekend.

If it doesn’t, I fear this weekend is what we’ll point as the start of a lost season.

I’m not endorsing a brawl…but I also think right now the Mets are presenting as a team that can be walked over.

The Mets play on national television Sunday night.

Will they be talked about as a team that fights back?

Or will everyone see them as a doormat?

It has not been the April I envisioned, that’s for sure.

The good news?

It can only get better from here.